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I think I want to move my account. I don't really update anything on this account anymore, and I feel like it is kind of crappy. My new account is not fanbase-based, and is more about the art/content that I really care about.

The new account is if you want to watch me! As for this account, it'll stay but I'll probably won't be used that much.

I haven't been active since probably early January, so I decided to make another update journal.

Well, I have two more months until my first year at college is done. Things are actually going more smoothly this semester. I've made an effort to put myself out there, I'm applying for a part-time job that I won't give up on, and I actually feel competent in what I'm doing. Unfortunately, I'm doing bad in my science class, but science was never really my thing. Hopefully, I pass the class with a decent grade.

March is also the time where I can plan out my plans for the next school year. In the fall, I have to take classes that will relate to my major, and I will also have to change roommates. I'm more excited about the latter thing, because out of the three roommates that I have currently, I've gotten sick of one of them (but that's another rant).

When not doing schoolwork, I'm usually watching stuff. I actually gave anime a chance and realized not all of it is Pokemon-esque garbage (sorry to any Pokemon fans, but I don't like the show). I've also found shows on cable and network TV that interested me, like Empire, The Flash, and The Royals. I also watched that Phinabella episode about two weeks after it aired. It...wasn't good (but that's ANOTHER rant).

I pretty just rambled through this but I wanted to inform you guys about what's going on in my life now.

I think I'll end my journal here

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you're having a great day!

My last journal was kind of negative, but this one won't be that bad. I'm starting to get the hang of college now. My health is better now, I think my grades are decent, and I'm starting to make friends now. The weekends still suck and I still don't have a job, but hopefully, they will get better.

This week, I am on vacation from school, so I will be more active on here. I probably won't have any art to upload, but I'll be faving and commenting on stuff!

I don't have a lot to say today, but I just wanted to let you all know how I'm doing.

I haven't made a journal since August...I probably won't make another journal for a long time...

In my last journal, I mentioned that I was excited for college and all the new experiences. That mindset changed completely.

I kind of loathe college right now. Some people might think it's the best few years of their lives, but for me, it is complete shit. A few things are good, but I'm two months in, and kind of wish I wasn't there. It honestly has made me kind of depressed and done with life. Classes are okay, but some of them are complete garbage, and are worst than some of my worst high school classes. I've made friends, but so far, I haven't really hung out with anyone outside of class, and I've literally done nothing except watch Youtube videos and do homework on my weekends. I don't expect to go out every week, but sitting at my dorm and doing nothing gets boring after a while. Basically, unless you party (which I don't) don't even bother...

College is also the time where my health decides to fail. I've been sick for more than three times, and it turns out that one of my sicknesses was for an allergy that I had never been shown to have until now. I'm not sick now, but I won't be surprised if I end up catching ebola or something while I'm here.

On top of that, my self-confidence (what little I had) has diminished completely. Lately, I've felt like I can't do anything right. Last week, I attempted to get a job (to raise some money for myself), but I ended up missing the HR orientation for it because I got off at the wrong stop of a bus and the bus driver (intentionally?) led me to believe that I was at the right place, so I waited at the wrong place for an hour. I was LIVID. Other incidents similar to this has happened, so what's the point of trying anything?

I wish I didn't stay at the dorms or better yet, have gone to a different college, but since I don't have a license or a car, I won't be able to transport myself and my parents sure as hell isn't going to be doing that, and also my family doesn't have money to send me to another school because they've already spent a lot paying for the one I'm currently at.

So yeah, life kinda sucks right now. Maybe things might get better as the year goes on, but knowing my luck, I doubt it. Most high school graduates wouldn't say this, but I kind of miss high school.