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I haven't made a journal since August...I probably won't make another journal for a long time...

In my last journal, I mentioned that I was excited for college and all the new experiences. That mindset changed completely.

I kind of loathe college right now. Some people might think it's the best few years of their lives, but for me, it is complete shit. A few things are good, but I'm two months in, and kind of wish I wasn't there. It honestly has made me kind of depressed and done with life. Classes are okay, but some of them are complete garbage, and are worst than some of my worst high school classes. I've made friends, but so far, I haven't really hung out with anyone outside of class, and I've literally done nothing except watch Youtube videos and do homework on my weekends. I don't expect to go out every week, but sitting at my dorm and doing nothing gets boring after a while. Basically, unless you party (which I don't) don't even bother...

College is also the time where my health decides to fail. I've been sick for more than three times, and it turns out that one of my sicknesses was for an allergy that I had never been shown to have until now. I'm not sick now, but I won't be surprised if I end up catching ebola or something while I'm here.

On top of that, my self-confidence (what little I had) has diminished completely. Lately, I've felt like I can't do anything right. Last week, I attempted to get a job (to raise some money for myself), but I ended up missing the HR orientation for it because I got off at the wrong stop of a bus and the bus driver (intentionally?) led me to believe that I was at the right place, so I waited at the wrong place for an hour. I was LIVID. Other incidents similar to this has happened, so what's the point of trying anything?

I wish I didn't stay at the dorms or better yet, have gone to a different college, but since I don't have a license or a car, I won't be able to transport myself and my parents sure as hell isn't going to be doing that, and also my family doesn't have money to send me to another school because they've already spent a lot paying for the one I'm currently at.

So yeah, life kinda sucks right now. Maybe things might get better as the year goes on, but knowing my luck, I doubt it. Most high school graduates wouldn't say this, but I kind of miss high school.
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: This page
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
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I haven't made a journal in three months...

Well, summer vacation is coming to an end for me. In a week, I will be moving out of my house and living in a dorm at the college I'm going to. I might become extremely inactive until winter time, but that's life. Even with that, I am ecstatic to go to college! :)
As for art related things, I kind of lost interest in uploading fanart and stuff, so there will probably be no more new art on this page. I'll still fave and comment on things, though. Most of my stuff that I might actually upload is non-P&F related and on another account. I might be on the other account more.

Well, I just wanted to update. I hope you all are doing good :)
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  • Reading: This page
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: About to eat lunch
  • Drinking: A drink that's part of lunch
I haven't made a journal since August...I probably won't make another journal for a long time...

In my last journal, I mentioned that I was excited for college and all the new experiences. That mindset changed completely.

I kind of loathe college right now. Some people might think it's the best few years of their lives, but for me, it is complete shit. A few things are good, but I'm two months in, and kind of wish I wasn't there. It honestly has made me kind of depressed and done with life. Classes are okay, but some of them are complete garbage, and are worst than some of my worst high school classes. I've made friends, but so far, I haven't really hung out with anyone outside of class, and I've literally done nothing except watch Youtube videos and do homework on my weekends. I don't expect to go out every week, but sitting at my dorm and doing nothing gets boring after a while. Basically, unless you party (which I don't) don't even bother...

College is also the time where my health decides to fail. I've been sick for more than three times, and it turns out that one of my sicknesses was for an allergy that I had never been shown to have until now. I'm not sick now, but I won't be surprised if I end up catching ebola or something while I'm here.

On top of that, my self-confidence (what little I had) has diminished completely. Lately, I've felt like I can't do anything right. Last week, I attempted to get a job (to raise some money for myself), but I ended up missing the HR orientation for it because I got off at the wrong stop of a bus and the bus driver (intentionally?) led me to believe that I was at the right place, so I waited at the wrong place for an hour. I was LIVID. Other incidents similar to this has happened, so what's the point of trying anything?

I wish I didn't stay at the dorms or better yet, have gone to a different college, but since I don't have a license or a car, I won't be able to transport myself and my parents sure as hell isn't going to be doing that, and also my family doesn't have money to send me to another school because they've already spent a lot paying for the one I'm currently at.

So yeah, life kinda sucks right now. Maybe things might get better as the year goes on, but knowing my luck, I doubt it. Most high school graduates wouldn't say this, but I kind of miss high school.
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: This page
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

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This was originally a P&F fanart outlet, but I moved on to other things to draw. I still like P&F though.

Current Residence: United States
Favourite genre of music: At long as it has a good beat, I like it
Favourite style of art: MS Paint or drawing by hand
MP3 player of choice: iPod nano (but I listen to Pandora online)
Favourite cartoon character: I like P&F characters
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:iconkubitschekf12014:
KubitschekF12014 Featured By Owner Edited Sep 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for my PnF work with Biomerge flair.
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Tpffan5196 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014
you're welcome
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KubitschekF12014 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I do appreciate the noble thought. Do tell me specifically why you loved the drawing. :D
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Fangirl-Musiclover Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014   Artist
Thanks for the fave
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Tpffan5196 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014
you're welcome
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WildRose789 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014
Thank you for the fave^^
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Tpffan5196 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014
you're welcome :)
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cutekid579 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave
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Tpffan5196 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014
you're welcome
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Elisa2B Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  New member
thanks a lot for the fav sweetie :hug: !
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